sadly.

i sat today with my laptop on my tray of my wheelchair trying to figure out a stupid ass math problem for at least 15 minutes, if not 20. i asked the professor for help but he told me that he couldn't help me because it was a post-test. i actually got tears to my eyes because i was so frustrated. i know that it probably sounds stupid to get upset over math but it's not just math, it's the fact that i can't figure it out. i should be able to figure this stuff out, i don't know how to do a lot of the problems anymore. i know that i shouldn't always expect myself to remember everything, but i wanted to remember more than i do right now. i get frustrated with everyone else around me doing more than i am, or it seems that way anyway and the professor focuses his attention more on their questions, so that i don't even feel that i should burden him by asking him for help or i don't even get a chance to ask him for help in the first place. i was hoping that math would come to me. guess not..